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♣ Monday, April 30, 2007

feeling remorseful,confused,and lost.
i have this strong sense that im
LOSING YOU ..


Whats going on? i dont know
Im going through the darkness.
Darkness that is ambigious enough for me to predict.
I just cant believe it happened to me.
I was so happy to meet him in my life.
I swear i was feeling "the MOST LUCKIEST" girl in the world.
but.. but... now..i dunnoe what happened.

Im losing my position.I cant help it.
What did i do wrong to make you think of such decision?
What on earth is happening to me or to us.
Havent i been fair with you in your life
Your friends or whatever sports you did.
Today u acted as if im a stranger.

My fear has started to overpowered me.
I cant control it.I guess i will cried like a mad woman.
And it gonna be worse than the other day.
I missed those three letter words from you.
"DEAR" is still exist.Im still thankful it is still there.but.. its not enought that is 100% safe.
Those current messages are trying to hint me that it is a bid "good-bye,Diyanah."

I cant help it this feeling like no other.
I just want you to know,i never had someone like YOU.
Sesungguhnye i cant wait for "2years" day to come.
and make it 100 years relationship,can?

The other day someone told me that Shakir 4 years relationship have gone to waste.
Just like that.And i was praying to myself that this wont happened to us.
And today i saw him with a girl.Maybe his classmate.
Im not sure.I predict she is his classmate.
I just cant imagine if such thing will happened to me,but in different story.

Ala................. I dont want to lose my loved ones.Geddit?
thats the bottomline.I have put all my heart and soul to put in effort to this relationship.
And the only boy that my family knows is him.


I have no mood for school,MP and Im doomed.

Because you have many friends now,You dont need me.
Because gf, can find anywhere,anytime,everywhere.
And i cannot lie to myself that i really hearts you lots and fear of losing you.


it dont matters
im hurt.
Seriously,noone can mend this heart.
Except you.
for my heart to beat & bleed for your pain
Term and condition apply*
Always said I would know where to find love,
Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough,
But some times I just felt I could give up.
But you came and changed my whole world now,
I'm somewhere I've never been before.
Now I see, what love means.
[Chorus]
It's so unbelievable, And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful, Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been, Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,
Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.
In my heart, in my head, it's so clear now,
Hold my hand you've got nothing to fear now,
I was lost and you've rescued me some how-.
I'm alive, I'm in love you complete me,
And I've never been here before.
Now I see, what love means.
[Chorus]
When I think of what I have, and this chance I nearly lost,
I cant help but break down, and cry.
Ohh yeah, break down and cry.
[Chorus]
Now I see, what love means
♥being MYSELF at 11:04 PM